3 Now What?
How am I going to pay the bills? Can I keep the house? What if something breaks? When will the insurance money pay out? What do I do with all his stuff? And on and on the list goes, yet all you want to do is crawl into a ball and hide. Your head feels in a fog, you start something, then forget what you’re doing and why. Everything is in slow motion, yet not. Your emotions are very tender and tears flow, sometimes seeming like they will never stop. Then you get angry, back to sad, then angry and the circle goes on and on.
It took me a couple of months to realize that I needed to get some help. Through my husband’s job I got 7 free counseling sessions, which I did use, but it wasn’t enough. My church sponsored a grief workshop with a local Hospice, and I learned that they offer free counseling, (at least where I was living at the time) so I contacted them. I worked with them on a weekly basis for over a year and then slowly reduced to occasional phone call. Hospice is a wonderful resource and offers more than end of life care.
You are so brave and so courageous. You realized that you needed some direction in your life and you went after it and kept finding more free sessions-you didn’t give up! You were getting your power back and getting stronger, so proud of you! I know that you will keep it up, I will be anxious to read part four. Blessings to you, my friend.